Some Things Aren't Mean to be Used as Jokes..

Assalamualaikum w.b.t...........

Glad I'm making an effort to blog. :)

I had a problem before, or actually, still now. But I already find it's solution.

I like someone. He is a good person. Then I kinda tell everyone about it. I tend to speak about stuff confidently although it is not necessary true. Hmm... I should fix that bad habit. I just want things to be exciting, something interesting to talk about. Things are getting interesting, yes.  But I think I already went overboard.

Then, just now, a friend of mine ask me. If I really like him, don't I wanna do something about that? any action taken? Can I bear losing him because I did nothing?

Then it struck me.

Am I really serious about this? Will I be willing to take the next step of my life......... with him?

This feeling towards him, unfortunately, part of it is because it is interesting to like him, to discuss about this with my friend. I'm afraid that it's not pure attraction.

sigh.

Still, the pounding of my heart can't lie. The blushing on my cheeks does shows. And my wide smile......... it is something I can't hide.

Liking you, Mr, is something that I am grateful of.

Thank you. :)

Penangan 'Cinta'

Assalamualaikum,,

I don't know.. boleh tak guna blog untuk meluahkan duka lara di hati?
You know.... kadang2 tak suka tengok orang yang dibutakan matanya dek 'cinta'. Celupar je hati ni melekeh-lekehkan orang macam tu. Tapi ye lah kan, sebab tak kena penangan tu lagi so tak berani la cakap apa2.

Entah la.. memang semua orang akan kena penangan 'cinta' tu ke?

Sungguh daku tak suka kerana I am one of the people yang jadi korban penangan 'cinta' tu. Orang yang mamai sebab 'cinta', then aku masuk sekali dalam kancah permasalahan diorang. You know, I have no choice.

Tak suka bila batas dilanggar, tak suka kerana nafsu diagung-agungkan, tak suka bila dunia diutamakan.

Sekarang atau dulu, sama je. Sejahil-jahil aku, tahu yang hubungan tu ada something wrong. Terselit di hatiku, it is not right.

Tapi bagaimana aku untuk membetulkannya? Aku cuba memberontak, dan ia memakan diriku sendiri. Aku cuba menasihati, tapi ia ibarat masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri.

Cinta apa itu bila orang lain tersepit menjadi mangsa? Cinta apa itu jika pentingkan diri itu polisi utama?

Memang, jika kita sayangkan seseorang, kita mesti bantu dia untuk bahagia. Tapi, aku tidak nampak adanya bahagia di situ. Beribu konflik yang tidak sudah, dari mana asalnya itu?

Entahlah...........

Wassalam

Ramadhan Yang Menduga

Assalamualaikum,

Ramadhan Kareem!

Ramadhan .: Bulan penuh barokah yang sangat ditunggu-tunggu oleh hamba-Nya yang soleh.

Ramadhan pada tahun ini,, secara jujurnya, I think it is better than last year. Apa yang better nya?
Banyak....... alhamdulillah.

Tatkala diri teringat saat2 mengharungi Ramadhan semasa SPM dahulu. Memang masa tu rasa the best moment of my life. Family pun ok sikit, hati pun lebih tenang. Mungkin sebab time tu nak perang exam kot, so jadi solehah lebih sikit. Bi'ah pun solehah je.. hati pun insya Allah bersih suci murni. Time tu cakap dengan family pun lemah lembut sopan bagai.

Sekarang ni, masya Allah dugaan agak menduga jugak la. Kesabaran dalam diri pun rasa tipis je. Ketenangan yang diharapkan sudah tidak dapat dirasai. rasa.. rasa.. heheh.

Sebab sekarang tengah fasa kena ujian, so still tak berapa nampak hikmah dan ibrah yang Allah nak ajar. Tak nampak pun takpe, I want to believe in Allah. Berjuang! Hiarghh!

Susah oh duduk sorang2 ni,, futur suka betul hinggap. Sobs..

at least, hafal doa 10 malam terakhir ye..

ok, Assalamualaikum ~~

Summer 2013

Assalamualaikum,,,,,

Blog ni dah bersawang kot, lama sudah tidak ku jenguk. Ampunkan daku wahai blog, kesibukan telah memisahkan kita (sibuk kononnya) ditambah dengan godaan FB, twitter dan manga yang kelihatan lebih menyeronokkan dari berblogging. Tapi serious, nyesal oh tak blog.

Update,
Jaulah summerku ke Rome, Pisa, Florence, Venice, Milan, Turin, Nice, Marseilles, dan Paris telahpun berjaya dikhatamkan. My feeling, sungguh aku tak suka jaulah. Ada pulak homesick time2 jaulah. Sadis. Ditambah pula dengan kes pickpocket yang melibatkan sahabat sejaulah, memang menjunamkan mood berjaulah yang memang di takat negatif. Tapi, well, at least aku dah jejak kaki kat tempat2 tu jadi tak menyesal kot di kemudian hari.

Di Venice, Italy

Seriously, sekarang tengok2 gambar baru macam, eyh, lawanya tempat yang aku pergi ni! Waktu kat sana fikir nak balik sajork. Sobs.

Next update, baru selesai menjadi ajk yang menjayakan WOW 2013. Apa itu WOW? It stands for Wonderful Overseas Weekend. Alaa.. pre-departure program untuk sahabat2 yang nak fly. Okay ini sangat awesome! Penceramah jemputan yang datang bukan calang2 orangnya, mantap kot. Haish, takyah nak explain lagi, watch this video! 

Best kan3.......... hehe.

Seronok tengok para peserta yang sangat matang dalam menerima apa yang para penceramah sampaikan. They really have a good insight. Semoga pengembaraan kalian dipermudahkan Allah swt.

Okay dah habis update.

Actually, raya ketiga ni dah kena balik Ireland sebab kena repeat paper. Ottoke!!!!!!

Itulah! kenapa tak belajar elok2 sayang oiiiii. Kan dah kena repeat. Tapi seriously, serik kot! Okay, I promise to myself, saya akan belajar elok2, taknak repeat2 dah..... 

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan hamba Mu ini. T.T

Wassalam

Bought Books at Amazon

Assalamualaikum w.b.t ...................................

Last weekssss, I bought books at Amazon. How can it happen?

Well, I was fb-ing when I supposed to study. Yeah, fb seems more appealing when the exam is near. And it will be much more appealing on the night before the exam. (=,=)

Then I saw a post by Yasmin Mogahed, she is a famous Muslimah writer, blogger, motivator,,,,, I like her because she had a good insight of life. She posted about her book 'Reclaim Your Heart' that is on sale in Amazon.com. And I was like,  SALE!!!

So, yeah, I bought the book............................... and also another two books. One part of me said "oh my money..................... T.T" and another part of me said  "It's okay they are good books". And also added by exam stress (kononnya), I spent my money on them.

And just now, I got them!!!!! Happy........... happy.........................

Eager to see what are inside

Almost there..

Adrenalin rush.. yeeha!

Saja posing buku

Doakan semoga aku khatam semua ni :)

Alhamdulillah.. Ya Rahman ya Raheem............. <3

Wassalam. \\(^o^)

Blessed Jumu'ah

Assalamualaikum,,

Actually, I just want to fill m time by blogging. FB seems bored, twitter is over capacity (what the heck!). Twitter even checking whether I am a 'human'. Ha.. ha.. so funny. (=,=)

So, I just finished my FM1002 anatomy spot test. And now I was like "bismillahi tawakkaltu 'alaAllah". I don't want to put my hope high because in my previous assessment, my marks is like.................. *crying.

I should prepare for my biochem and physiology now but ottoke, no mood~~~~~~

Today is such  bless. When I was so terrified this morning, I managed to speak with my mum on the phone. She's good at touching people's hearts with words, in this case, positively. :') so, yeah.. I feel loved~

Then when I sat on the first floor at WGB, Kak Atiq and Kak Aisyah passed by. I considered it as a miracle because I never met them at WGB. WGB means Western Gate Building at University College Cork. Heehee.. they also gave me their soothing words and support. And it really helps a lot! I feel loved again.

I was in the last group so I finished my test quite late. And I was terribly hungry that I decided to cook some instant noodle because it's quick and delicious. Then I reached my home and you know what? I smelled TOMYAM!!!!!!! Nik, my housemate cooked tomyam and white rice. And I ate happily. When my tummy happy, I'm happy!

Kak Kinah will go to Palestine next week. I'm quite worried abot her but I believe that Allah will protect her. I hope that one day I will be courageous like her and fight for Islam. May Allah put us among the people He loved.

Ameen ya Rabbal 'Alameen..

Sasterawati Wannabe

Assalamualaikum..

I was planning to make entries about my winter trips. But then I got bored and do something else.
Sasterawati wannabe. lol

How is it? Okay? I know it got some flaws but hey, I'm happy me happy..

Wassalam..