Al-Fatihah For My Beloved,,,

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,,,,,,

Dear,,
i remembered the day you was born,,
i am a small kid and you are a little baby,,
i told everyone to call you Din

we fought a lot ,,
i know i was mean,,
it is the envy of a child to her younger brother,,
who is loved more than her..
and still loved more..

we grow and become more matured,,,
i'm not against you anymore,,
i started to like the fact that i have a brother..
a good-looking one,, and kind

I love you.. and i never say it :(

thank you for your deed,,
thank you for your love,,
and thank you for your existence..

ya Allah,,
thank you for giving him to us,,
please protect and care for him..
may mom, zahra and i met you in Jannah..

Ameen ya Rabbal a'lameen..

he come full of loves,,
and he leaves with more loves,,

God bless him,,,

Al-Fatihah

to: Mohd Zahiruddin bin Zakaria.
     30 Sept 2011

Losing My Humanity...

Assalam,,,

recently i feel that my life is lack of something. it is hard to describe it. 

naaah...it is pretty easy. actually i feel that i am lack of emotion. yeah. E.M.O.T.I.O.N...

 i can't feel strong emotion. i mean,,, i can show it but i definitely can't feel it.

and it caused me to ignore the world outside. i prefer staying home, alone,, doing things that i want.

i am trying to understand myself.....

maybe my brain started to reject any strong feeling and prefer to be in the safe zone. 

is this really what i want? i am not sure.

  there are some people that i tend to avoid .

so for the time being... my brain setting mode is "Avoiding" (is there such thing?)

because i hate to lose control of myself and do foolish things.

i hate making mistakes yet i keep doing it.

que sera, sera,,,, really? how can you forget it?

and forgive.. yes i can forgive others but not myself.

what i can do for the time being is asking for forgiveness.....

CAN YOU FORGIVE ME ? 

(*o*)

Apabila Aku Mengutuk Kaum Sejenis..

Assalam,,,, 

kalau aku buat entri dalam bahasa ibunda ni.. mesti pasal benda merepek.

memang nak merepek pun,,, membebel.

tension tengok sesetengah perempuan.

Muslim 

buat status fb macam2

mengadu sana-sini

menggedik sana sini

well... i'm not telling you that i'm perfect

kadang-kadang aku pun menggedik jugak

cuma waktu aku tulis entri ni, aku kurang gedik sikit

ye, sikiiiit

bab mengadu memang tak boleh blah

demam sikit, buat status

sedih, buat status

kalau tulis ayat-ayat hikmah takpe lah jugak

some words yang make u stronger

ni nak tagih simpati orang buat apa?

simpati orang tu lah yang akan melemahkan kita

tahu tak!

kalau yang single, takde partner,
tak payah lah buat status lonely bagai
"nak someone" lah
"nak kahwin" lah
ada yang lagi best
promote diri sendiri
gila la weyh

pasal gambar

takyah cakap laaa

seronok sangat tunjuk aurat kat orang?

semalam aku "ter"tengok gambar-gambar yang orang komen

thanks to mr mark for creating the ticker box *yes i am a stalker

sexaaaay gila

walaupun muka comel putih bagai

tapi perlu ke tunjuk?

what you want to gain by showing off your beauty?

a life partner ?

helloooo 

jodoh dah ditakdirkan

ko tunjuk semua aset ko, tapi kalau dia bukan jodoh ko, takkan kahwin jugak...

so siapa yang rugi?

yang bertudung pulak

tak payah lah posing macam model

yes korang cantik

tapi kalau letak gambar hanya untuk tunjuk korang pakai baju apa..

tak payah lah

kalau sekali-sekala, it's fine by me

tapi kalau selalu....

you are making me sick

ini tak kira yang buat mulut itik dengan mata anak anjing
yes i call that kind of eye "puppy eyes"

i'm just giving my point of view as as lady

what i think of you

orang lain mungkin boleh terima 

lagi-lagi lelaki

seronok lah diorang nak cuci mata

everybody makes mistakes
tapi kita boleh berubah

lets raise our values

tapi,,,, kalau kamu-kamu ini
rasa apa yang kamu-kamu buat
ok... tak salah....
terserah
itu hak kamu-kamu

(^o^)

Wassalam,,,

A TEST BY GOD

Assalamualaikum,,,,,

i changed the theme of my blog so that it matched with my feeling nowadays. it is gloomy and not as bright as before. this is something that always lies deep in my heart. the negative aura and sadness...

yes it is true, everybody had been given tests by God to prove our faith toward Him... and when we managed to overcome the obstacles, we will become a better person. may God bless,,,

this heavy burden i had carried throughout the years started to become unbearable for me. my life had been greatly affected by it. suddenly i had to be the protector and at the same time, i become the bad person too. sometimes i need someone to cheer me up but i always know that God is always beside me. i just can feel it...

we cannot get everything we want in this world... so just put a big smile and enjoy the life until the last breath.

sometimes i feel proud of myself for getting this hard test from God. well,,,, i'm the lucky girl~

i hope that i can keep my faith forever. gaining success in this life and hereafter... Insya'llah..

Wassalam,,,,

APA JADI KALAU WIFI RUMAH KU KENA POTONG

Assamualaikum,,,

tengok tajuk pun da tahu entry ni berkisar pasal apa. 

well,,, baru-baru ni wifi rumah kena potong = tak boleh online kat rumah

nak keluar, sahabat dah sambung study

so...

kena tukar cara hidup aku

daily lifestyle

dan secara tak sengaja, aku teramalkan cara hidup waktu sekolah menengah dulu 

baca novel english,,,

dan

layan komik jepun

yang cintan-cintun

waaaaw !

childish~ eish3

(ihsan encik google)

best,,,, tak panjang sangat.... ad lukis2,,, visual!

tapi,,, sekarang dah ada wifi. adakah patut aku meninggalkan zaman kanak-kanakku ?

selamat tinggal ~ ~ ~

nanti kalau wifi kena potong lagi,, aku layan korang ok ?