TURNING INTO THE NEW LEAF,,,

Assalamualaikum,,,

i just learned how to delete the posts from my blog. so, yeah! i deleted A LOT.
i deleted posts that are quite private and useless. and it feels GREAT!
p/s : why on earth did i published them before?

forgetting the sad and humiliating things,,, and turning on a new leaf.

i started to get serious in this last sem in ACMS. it is so exhausting lately and my health condition made this worse. i just had gastric in the morning and fever at night during last week. i am still feeling unwell right now.

that's why i am trying to take care of my meals. less rice, more biscuits and milk.

i love anatomy, but there are tons to study and stuffs to be remembered. physics, needs a lot of understanding.

my life becomes more interesting here. yes, we start to get serious but the madness increase as well.
 
welcome life,,

Azam??

Assalamualaikum,,,,,

I just realized that a lot of my friends that are considered to be so-so in their younger age become very excellent in their studies. 

it sort of open my eyes to the reality. i should be better than them. i CAN be better than them.

my weakness:

1) i cannot focus on my subject

2) i like to do something else than studying, revising etc,,

3) my hobby, sleeping

all this bring to the same conclusion , i like to play. i am very upset with myself. 

why i cannot focus on my study? why???

so,,, i decided to jot down some rules for myself.

RULES!

1) FB CAN ONLY BE OPENED AT NIGHT DURING WEEKEND.

2) I HAVE TO DO MY REVISION AFTER MAGHRIB AND TO BE CONTINUED AFTER ISYAK UNTIL 11 O'CLOCK

3) ANATOMY AND PHYSIOLOGY SUBJECT IS MY FICTIONAL NOVEL

4) PHYSICS IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND 

5) ETHICS IS MY 'CHICKEN SOUP FOR THE SOUL'

6) ALL NEW ENTRIES FOR MY BLOG HAVE TO BE IN ENGLISH

7) STOP DREAMING, MORE PRAYING, A LOT OF HARD WORK.

Zhakieya,,, u can do it!! 

4.0 flat can be reality.

i love u,,,

Car??

Assalamualaikum,,,

my mom bought me a car,,,, don't be thrilled, it is just a secondhand car.
but Alhamdulillah,,, it is still a car.

it looks like this:

it is a Honda Accord model, Diamond series, manufactured in 1990-1992. colour, blue black. price, not expensive lor,,
i have a few problem regarding this car.
1) i'm not a good driver. need tons of practice. luckily it's an auto.
2) i'm afraid that this car use a lot of petrol. i'm saving my money to spend on more important stuffs, like my
    RM 101 anatomy books that haven't been paid yet.
3) the maintenance, i'm not sure yet but i'd heard that it has some problem with gear and so on,, although i'm  
    told that its fixed but who knows,,

good stuffs about my Diamond(ececey..)
1) it is really spacious(^o^)
2) it is an auto
3) it's mine!!!

hope 1 day, i will be able to drive it with confidence. because now i am a terrible driver. haisshh~

Something to write

Assalamualaikum,,,,,

i don't know what to write, but i just in the mood of writing something. oh, the guy in my previous entry, forget that u read that stuff. i'll not delete it but now, i think the feeling are gone. he is not the one that i used to know. he has changed,,,, a lot. 

let bygone be bygone.

being single is fun! spread the love,,,, didn't have to do it between opposite gender that is not your family

(non-mahram). the best love that a human can have is the love to/from God. u cannot see the love but your heart can feel it, fulfilling and sweet. 

everybody is not perfect. this means that there are no human being that will never make mistakes. but without mistakes, life will be sooooooooooooooooooooo BORING. 

but,,, of course, i will be very angry to myself when i did some mistakes. honestly, i am a very clumsy person. the clumsiness caused me a lot of trouble until now. poor mommy, she endure a lot of tense because of me. 

i caught a picture of me lately, i looked slimmer in the picture but i am not fooled by it. i knew that i had gained some weight. so, i make the girl in the photo (which is me) as an idol. and i know that it is not impossible because the girl is me. being chubby really drowned my self esteem although i knew that i am not ugly.

okay, that's enough for today i think,,,  (what rubbish did i write?? oh God..)

Marriage d Amour,,,,

Assalamualaikum,,,,,,

sedap x title entry kali ni? mesti korg ingat aku nak cerita pasal perkahwinan berasaskan percintaan or etcetera2,,,,,

tet2,,,, WRONG!

hhahaha,,,,

Marriage d Amour ni satu lagu yang giler punya romantik. meaning dia korg mesti konpem boleh agak,  "Wedding of Love". bila kita dengar je, cair terus. composer lagu ni adalah Richard Clayderman. tengak r pakcik Richard main kat video ni.

first time aku dengar lagu ni masa kawan rapat aku main. dia memang master da main piano ney. *kagum/jeles

tetibe hari ni baru terbukak hati nak download piano sheet lagu ni. tengok2 notes dia, senang la jugak (riak2).
understandable and playable buat aku.

so target buat masa ni, khatam blajar Marriage d Amour! go3~
p/s: bajet mcm x payah study sem 3.

adooooiii,,,,,,,,,

The CoNsEqUeNcES

Assalamualaikum,,,
last entry kan pasal bengang.
jadi ini entri sambungannya,,, ermmm,,, sort of

malam itu aku diundang untuk celebrate birthday awin.
sepatutnya keluar petang tetapi oleh sebab masalah pengangkutan,
aku, cleo, amirul dan pian bertolak peda pukul 9.30 malam.
(fakta: student hanya boleh kluar sampai pkl 10.00 malam)


memang seronok r dalam kereta, gelak2,,
(lagi satu fakta: dalam kereta tu ada 3 laki dan seorang perempuan)


aku tak risau sebab aku percaya kat diorang.
budak lelaki pre-med baik2~ (?.?)

sampai je kat Sunway Carnival mall,
terus menuju ke Pizza Hut,
kami la yang paling lambat sampai,
semua geng dah nak habis makan,
lepas makan2, gelak2, makan2 lagi,
kitorang pun terus naik ke cinema,
gaduh2 nak tengok movie apa,
The Tourist, Faster, dan Khurafat!
akhirnya..... KHURAFAT menang~ (*dislike2)
hhhaha

untuk mengisi masa lapang, kitorang pun pergi ke arcade,
main2 game,,,
aku duet dengan linda
oleh sebab kitorang sangat tak terer,
main beberapa saat je dah game over,
kagum dengan amar, lama gila dia main.
oleh sebab tidak mahu menghabiskan duit lagi, kitorang pun beredar,
tangkap2 gambar depan cinema

beli drinks dan popcorn dan corn in cup,

kitorang pun masuk cinema,

tengok cerita yang khurafat tu,,,,

komen aku lepas tengok filem tu:

 "taknak ambil medic,,,taknak ambil medic"

 kenapa? tengok r sendiri.

bartolak ke pv kira2 jam 1.30 PAGI.
race dgn keta amar,,,
(Fakta: kitorang menang tapi tunggu kat roundabout sebab nak diorang menghadap pak guard dulu)

 akhirnya,
-kitorang kena tahan,
-kena ambil kad matrik,
-tulis nama
-ceramah
-tulis surat keterangan
(Fakta: bilangan orang yang kena adalah 13 orang)


this is the most memorable night I have at acms recently......
go super junior 13!!!

BengAng3!!

Assalamualaikum,,,,
ape perasaan ak sekarang??
mestilah bengang!!!!



kenapa??
taknak la cakap. tapi memang tak ada kena mengena dengan lelaki.
konfem,,,
bengang sebab janji dimungkiri(ceewah!)
nape aku pantang gila menda ni??
sebab,,,,,

Bila orang berjanji, akan adalah satu perasaan yang dipanggil harapan.
           Bila orang mungkir janji, apa jadi pada harapan itu??
Mestilah hancur,,,,,,,,
             Maka akan terbitlah satu perasaan yang digelar kekecewaan. 

tambah-tambah lagi bila benda ini melibatkan hubungan kekeluargaan. aku memang sensitif sikit bab ini. walaupun kadang2 aku tak bagi reaksi atau senyum je. betullah kata2 hikmah ni

KIta HanyA mAMpU mErAnCaNg, TuHan SahAJa Yang MeneNTUKan,,,,

apa yang aku akan buat bila bengang??
sakitkan diri sendiri
buat benda yang teruk
macam dalam subjek Psikologi,,
"acting out."
mungkin ini defense mechanism aku....

tapi setakat ni,,
Tuhan masih sayangkan aku
God, I love you too,,,