Losing My Humanity...

Assalam,,,

recently i feel that my life is lack of something. it is hard to describe it. 

naaah...it is pretty easy. actually i feel that i am lack of emotion. yeah. E.M.O.T.I.O.N...

 i can't feel strong emotion. i mean,,, i can show it but i definitely can't feel it.

and it caused me to ignore the world outside. i prefer staying home, alone,, doing things that i want.

i am trying to understand myself.....

maybe my brain started to reject any strong feeling and prefer to be in the safe zone. 

is this really what i want? i am not sure.

  there are some people that i tend to avoid .

so for the time being... my brain setting mode is "Avoiding" (is there such thing?)

because i hate to lose control of myself and do foolish things.

i hate making mistakes yet i keep doing it.

que sera, sera,,,, really? how can you forget it?

and forgive.. yes i can forgive others but not myself.

what i can do for the time being is asking for forgiveness.....

CAN YOU FORGIVE ME ? 

(*o*)